I Am...

I am everything you thought I wasn't. I turn on/off like a light switch and have mood swings as fast as the weather changes in L.A. Pedicures are my stress relief, but I get them once in a blue moon. So, yes I'm still stressed. I love green vegetables, but hate peas and anything pea-like. Carrots are coming along thanks to my bestfriend, but very slowly so that's why I now wear glasses, which are unfortunatley tilted to the left and always being misplaced. I break out into hives when I drink, but I have a better time if I'm too buzzed to know I'm really bored. I read only non-fiction because if I wanted to picture something in my head, I'd go watch a movie instead. I hate all movies until they give me reason to love them, buy them, absorb them. I quote stuff because I can't say it any better and make-up words like "kaloo" "boohead" just to make it stick better than your average pet name. I miss my pet Cinnamon very much that it makes it harder everyday to look outside my bedroom window, which used to be Mama's room for the last 26 years...I wish Mama peace of mind since her family is falling apart like her memory. And the strength for us to find a way to get back together again. I love just being with my family because through it all they always find a way to make me laugh. My sisters know me better than I know myself. My mom can say all the wrong things at the right moments but can calm me down like water to a lit match. My dad takes care of things like that was his only purpose in life and it feels good to come home with dinner on the table and a dying candle's scent permeating the room. My LOML and I have come to a dramatic turn of events, yet he knows in his heart that I'm the one. And that alone is reason enough to get up, start over, do something, talk to a friend, write a blog, hug a loved one, text a joke, appreciate, live, love, and go to bed.